I've been in the MRI for three weeks with a variety of things due to a compromised immune system. I've had a nasty urine infection, a resiliant bug that requires in total 14 days of I.V. antibiotics twice a day, a nasty chest virus and a white cell count down at 1.2. Pretty serious. I've also had and a visit to theatre to remove a lump of tissue developed around my clavical.
There's loads more, but this is a quick update. I find myself to be in a place of physical and emotional depletion. As always, if you want to spur me on, cards and messages really help.
There's lots of other emotionally challenging stuff occurring as well. The new kidney is holding its own, but it's devastated to hear that one of the treatments for the bug is an I.V. antibiotic that endangers my new kidney. I'm not there yet though.
The superstitious part of me says that's because I dared to think I was OK. The rational part says it's a blip, and have to take one day at a time. It's stressfull for my family and friends and those who are and have become close to me, so I want anyone reading this to be hopefull for me.
I need all the help I can get at the moment. Love Trace x
Eh up Trace. Felling any better today? Hopefully a pinstep towards wellness occurred overnight, and you're able to have a laugh with a fairy/nurse. Delete as appropriate.
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Kel xxxxxxxxxxxx
Ps This is my first comment and I appear to be somewhat technologically challenged. You can't win 'em all xx
Hi Tracey, I know its a long time since I've spoken to you but I just want you to know that your in my thoughts and I'm reading your blog. Best wishes, Paul xxx
ReplyDeleteHi Trace, you're in my thoughts and prayers all the time. This is just a blip, nothing more than that. You'll be back baking your legendary fruit cake before you know it. As you always tell me: just focus on what you need to do at this moment, which in your case is rest, relax and work together with the drugs to heal your body. Lots of Love Sophie xxx
ReplyDeleteHi Tracey; Just picked up Marten's message and am utterly devastated to hear this news. Enough!! We are storming heaven for help to clear up this 'bug'......I guess that means the hospital infection. I cannot imagine the new burst of courage this one calls on, but I can imagine that YOU have it. Know that you are receiving love and prayers from this side of the pond, and that we are pulling with you. Very much love, Peggy
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ReplyDeleteWhat a bleeding pain this bug is! It,s not supposed to be this way and I am angry with the cosmos on your behalf. I also know your have tenacity so please remind your body of this. How wonderful to have your fab family supporting you and was good to talk to 3/4 of it on the phone.
Thinking of you and sending lots of love from down under and oodles of hope. Nadine xxxxx
Tracey, i've known you very slightly in the past and was trying to find you online as i needed supervision when i stumbled across this blog. you are loved and respected more than you know. wishing you strength for this fight and all the hope in the world with love Jane x
ReplyDeleteTo THE Tracey...who is loved world-wide...infamous and resilient. Shocked to read about these infectious bugs...and was concerned and then re-thought.....Tracey you are strong..you will fight these bugs with your strength of character. Plus all family and friends will fight with you and you will get through this difficult period.. And to quote Eleanor Roosevelt who said, " A woman is like a tea-bag - you never know how strong she is until she gets into hot water".
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Hi Tracey. Sending loads of love and wellness. Concentrate on getting well. Miss our conversations and looking forward to you offering your usual words of wisdom along with the obligatory piece of amazing cake and the best coffee in Manchester. Mags sends her love. Thinking of you.
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Tracey, I only just heard about your transplant. Are you still in MRI? I work just down the road and would love to visit, if you're up to it. My mobile is 07581 175624.
ReplyDeleteSending you lots of love and hope for a speedy recovery.
Shirley x
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Tracey. I can't believe for so long I've been wrapped up in my own little world that I haven't reached out to you. I've rang and left a couple of phone messages at home after you called be just before Easter and thought it strange that you hadn't replied. Then today I suddenly remembered your blog and here I am. My heart raced as I saw that you were in hospital again and my fear was high. Tracy you are an impressive and inspirational, zanny, funny, loving, giving, kind and talented woman who means so much to me - though my actions, well lack of them since your transplant shames me.
ReplyDeleteI do hope and put a heart felt request out into the Universe that you have all you need to make a full and quick recovery. That you gain more strenght and the will to get through this and quickly.
Throughout the last 13 years of being your client we have veloped a close relationship, which I treasure dearly. I really don't know if I've withdrawn because I'm scared, selfish or what - but I hope that you feel the full power of my love for you and know that although my actions haven't shown it, you have been in my thoughts. Take care and I'll keep looking on here to see when I can come see you. In the meantime I'll write to you.
With much love, affection and a sincer apology for having my head up my own arse for quite some time!!! Its out now so if you can face me, I'd love to visit you. Julie xxxx
Tracy,
ReplyDeleteWondering how you're doing on this sunny day. Moving into perfect health, I hope.
I don't know how you find out if someone's added to/commented on your previous blogs, but I wrote a rather long message, poem, chant, not quite sure what I'd call it, but hey you, hoping your feeling the power of what I sent and maybe you want to read comments from your entry prior to this one on 26th April.
Lots of love julie xxx
Hi Tracey, Larraine Kasprzyk here, I just wanted to wish you well and say that you are often in my thoughts and words and deeds, if the outpouring of love and positive energy that people have for you (even the ones who have only met you once!!)were medicine or strength you would be climbing mount everest!!
ReplyDeleteI fell across something that reminds me of you so will share it on here it goes....A strong woman KNOWS she has strength enough for the journey, but a woman of strength KNOWS it is the journey where she will become strong" -unknown......ITS MINE NOW!! lol stay safe lv and hugs Larraine
Hello Tracy, been thinking about you a lot, wondering how your are, and how your beautiful family are, my thoughts & love are with you all.
ReplyDeleteI miss you. And no one can't get anywhere near what I gain from you, so for some of my own selfish reasons as well as my genuine desire for you, I wish you a speedy recovery. I look forward to hearing your next post, lots of love Julie xxx :-)
I recall a time sat in your amazing conservatory, sat in comfortable silence, holding hands, not having be anything or say anything. Just being. God what a feeling. I hope you find times like this with your loved ones. I am sending every positive thought and vibe I can conjure and more. Gill Linden x
ReplyDeleteGood Luck Trace, Hope you're soon on top of the world, you deserve it after what you've been through. Much Love, Jacki & Paul Butterworth xxxxx
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