Hopeful Hare

Hopeful

I made this piece a few months ago whilst I was waiting to see if Mart was a match for donating one oh his kidneys to me. What a strange time that was...I guess I went into the process with very mixed feelings, and not really thinking he would be a match.It was only when all the testing started that I realized the enormity of it..I'm sure he had more tests than me.We had  separate medical teams during the testing process, our information was kept very separate...abit like at this stage the medics couldn't confer but of course we could ...and did. Strange to have the confidentiality in the hospital setting and then we'd be discussing it at the dinner table. So in fact at one time feeling we held more information about where we were up to in the process than our individual teams.

Then when Mart was given the 'yes nod' at his consultation he came out and took me into see his consultant, and told me we were a match. It was a surreal moment....I remember thinking and indeed saying 'oh shit!' followed by 'oh shit I'll have to be grateful for the rest of my life!'... I think this was probably a hysterical response but there is a seed of truth in it. Not that Mart wants a repayment or me to feel beholden but there is an element of how could you ever repay such a gift anyway.Although I can put my hand on my heart and say I would have done the same thing if the tables were turned.

The Hare I found in...yes you've guessed it TKMax! There are two of them but I chose this hare because of its upright posture, I like how she is looking wistfully and hopefully at the moon.When folk saw hares boxing they used to believe it was the male hares fighting over the females hares, but it is in fact it was  the females 'boxing off 'the pestering male hares.In Japan they believe there's a hare in the moon, not a man in the moon! The hare is also  associated with Oestre, the Goddess of the spring.The hare in this mosaic is associated with spring for me, the time when things come to life and indeed reinvent themselves after the winter hibernation... fitting in  light of the time scale for me......,hopefully transplant and recovery over the winter..and hopeful for what Spring will hold for me and my family. It feels like a vibrant and energetic piece which encapsulates the busyness of this time visiting the hospital for tests.